accidentally deleted my last entry here. whoops. no biggie tho, i was kinda cringing at it already.

i learned yesterday people actually like my writing, and it really helped my confidence. ive always loved to worldbuild and make characters and write, but i always think people will hate my work.

apparently, someone who used to hate me and physically AND mentally abuse me literally copied my design of one of the 7 deadly sins, sloth specifically. im not just saying this, either. she has a track record of making budget versions of my art and characters, and has even 'fixed' my art before. (she ruined it btw) she even got mad at ME because my ex preferred me over her.(she had a crush on them). anywho, yeah she copied my sloth design. i made mine a giant ground sloth (cuz i love prehistoric animals) and the design is very personal to me BECAUSE incorporated something i loved into it. he has fluffy hair covering his eyes, house slippers, long nails, sweatpants, the whole loungewear closet. a year or so maybe some months after i posted that design, she redesigned her version of sloth from a demon in a onesie, TO A GIANT GROUND SLOTH. WITH LOUNGEWEAR, LONG NAILS, AND HAIR OVER HIS EYES. THAT IS NOT A COINCIDENCE. even my mother, the person who can always calm me in situations like this and help me realize it could be a coincidence, didnt have any words. me and her were absolutely DUMBFOUNDED. like, im not even mad at this point. just dissapointed that her creativity is SO nonexistent, that she had to revert back to her old ways of copying my every move.

im back again already. lmao i just enjoy writing, tbh. ive been told i have the amount of insane stories as a woman in a nursing home, so i always have something to write about!

hmmm what story to tell... oohhh i know. ill just put a few small stories that arent big enough for their own entry! more like, gummys tidbits instead of gummys stories.. some gummy fun facts too.

my grandfather on my dads side isnt biological, and i didnt know until a year or two ago. my real grandfather was a mexican immigrant and i had MULTIPLE secret aunts and uncles. idk why, but it was entertaining to learn that im mexican.

speaking of grandfathers, my grandfather on my MOMS side was in vietnam! (happy early veterans day 2 him!!!) buuut unfortunately he has 'shell shock' which is just ptsd with a cooler name because mens mental health is so stigmatized that theyre scared to even admit they have trauma and are affected by it ANYWAYS. he was exposed to agent orange, thus me and my mother have effects from it.

hello!!! its been a minute since ive written anything in here.. im doing softball now! and ive discovered im maybe polyamorous!

also, idk if other places have this statute but in my state (fl*rida) we can only have a certain amount of absences. and it sucks, because im mentally and chronically ill...and need to miss days a lot. i worry about graduating sometimes, but i dont like dwelling on it.